Women scorned

I'm so very tired of bitching about this but every once in awhile my green monster rears it's ugly head. Two years ago I had tubal reversal surgery. I got pregnant 6 months after but miscarried. I haven't been able to get pregnant since. I know tons of women who have had the surgery that have gone on to have successful pregnancies, some even twice. While I have always enjoyed being "special" I really wish I was average when it comes to being pregnant. LOL

I never gave pregnancy a second thought until my surgery. I was clueless as to how the whole fertile myrtle thing happened. When I think back now it might not have been so easy for me to get pregnant. There are 3 years between my first two. I never used BC on a regular basis. I guess if it took me three years to conceive then I shouldn't be shocked that I'm having such a hard time now. However, there is only two years and two months between the last two. HMMM maybe I'm realizing a pattern here. Oh where oh where are my patience!?! I have a hard time letting go and letting God. I don't think he likes that too much. I need to learn my lesson I guess.